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Monday the 2nd

A new week begins and I can only hope that it is better than last week. I think that has been my hardest week since Mike left. I know that sounds stupid, we had sunshine and Sadie's birthday but I reached melt down point a couple of times. I think it was the heat (no AC in the house, Sawyer teething and having fevers for two days and I knew he was feeling miserable, and then the pressure of putting together a birthday party. It shouldn't be that hard right? Well I just copied my Friday night and Saturday morning adventures from an e-mail to Mike and I will copy it now-

Did you try to call today? Maybe tonight. I went to dinner with Jasmine and Amy. I have a feeling you must have. I hope you didn't, that you are doing something cool. Well, all I can say is that you can only be happy that you didn't call this morning. Oh my word, I can't even tell you the day I had. First off, last night Jane was supposed to spend the night with Shyah after the movie and when Jane came home to get her stuff Shyah came running over in tears because her brother had hit his head at the school bingo night and he had just thrown up everywhere so Shea was taking him to the hospital. I walked over and offered to take the two oldest but Shea wanted them to keep Justin awake. So Jane comes home and Sadie and Sophia and Jane watch a movie. At about 10, just after Ellyn and Sawyer have gone to sleep Shea calls. They want to keep Justin overnight, so I load up the kids and we drive out to Amberg to pick up Shyah and Josh. We got home at about 11:15 and then I had to configure beds for everyone and try to get 7 kids to sleep. Then... this morning Ellyn's respite caregiver was supposed to come at 9:30. She called last night and said she would be an hour late. I told her that was fine but that I really needed her as early as possible because I had alot to do because Sawyer had been sick for two days and I was behind getting ready for Sadie's party. She never showed. I called her cell and home and there was no answer. I was so frustrated I thought I was going to kill someone. Luckily Josh and Shyah are really good kids, they just helped but I had so much to do and Ellyn kept getting upset. I had planned on working on stuff after the kids had gone to bed and that was gone, I kept having to stop what I was doing to keep Ellyn happy and clean up stuff that she was getting into, I seriously almost lost it, not on Ellyn but I swear if Tina had showed up or called I would have hit her. I'm not kidding.

Anyway, I got in the shower twenty minutes before the party started, but I got everything done. Once the party started I was able to just relax. We had a great time. We decorated flower pots at the beginning and then the girls changed into their suits and played in the pool. Then we had a little snack- butter and jam sandwiches, fruit, raspberry lemonade, popsicles, chips, and then cake. It was alot of fun. Sadie had a great time. All the kids did, except poor Saria Dettmer. I felt terrible, Ann-Christin drove all the way out and Saria ended up not feeling well.

Anyway, Amy and Jasmine invited us to come to dinner and we went to a great little greek restaurant. It was really good, we ate outside and the kids got to run around in the courtyard. I have Shyah and Josh until at least tomorrow. You know those German hospitals. The kids are all bathed and the party is mostly cleaned up. I'm exhausted. I miss you.

So nothing earth shattering, just my inability to cope. Sadie did the sweetest thing yesterday. She came in and told me that she wanted to use her birthday money to get Jane an American Girl doll (that's what she got from Mike and me) so they could play together. Sadie got $55 dollars from her party (there was nothing great at the PX and almost everyone gave her really pretty cards filled with money) and she brought it in and handed it to me and was so excited when we got out the laptop and ordered Jane her doll. Sometimes these kids just bring me to tears. They can be so wonderful to each other. Last week Jane used her whole allowance for the month to get Sadie a playmobil set for her birthday. I just hope they continue this way. Well it is time to get Sadie up for school. She is so excited, she lost her top front tooth last night. She didn't really lose it, I pinned her down and ripped it out of her mouth! It was pretty fun and she was laughing hysterically. That thing was so loose. Anyway, she can't wait to show her new smile off at school. Blog out.

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