BREEZY FIELDS

I don't know what I would have done without my two amazing parents this week. It was so much work and I loved almost every minute of it. I have such good people in that mom and dad of mine. I will go into all the details later (hopefully). I do leave in two days to go see my TRUE LOVE. Home at last. Kind of. At least back in Germany, home in one month and 26 days. How demented my life must be that it seems to good to be true to think I will be with my husband again!

Julie Beck's talk was one of my favorites. I felt like she spoke of my life before and after I accepted the gospel into my life. Prior to accepting the gospel in my life, my husband and I were childless by choice. I really wanted to have children, but we decided it was best to wait until our student loans were paid off and we were financially stable. My husband and I didn't think that we could live off of one income that would support a family and the lifestyle we wanted. Shortly after missionary work by some dear friends, we accepted the gospel into our lives. It didn't take very long for us to see that our way of thinking was completely wrong, especially after seeing all the young LDS College Ward families who were not in the workforce yet and already had children of their own. We were amazed that they were younger than us and that the moms were all stay-at home moms. They had no income coming in other than their husband's student loans and a little financial aid, but...

Okay, just kidding. This is a never ending process. I am praying we are done by Tuesday. We are getting closer. It's like Tetris. However you spell it. Trying to fit everything in, but we are doing it. Mom is totally in charge. Does that surprise anyone? She is doing a fab job so I just pretend I'm 10 and have never moved and let her strategery work its magic. She and the girls took a little break tonight to go see a musical rendition of Narnia. I hope it's good. I'm off to unpack another box. If Sawyer will stop nursing that is.

or mom. She's the hardest working person on the planet, she can work anyone into the ground, and she is right here at my house. It is true, I am so relieved. While I have been able to do a great deal of unpacking it is going much slower than it has in the past. Something about 4 kids, three schools, soccer, young women, nursing, etc... So it is mom to the rescue once again. Geof, I am so glad you are an underpaid pilot. It's a life saver. Mom flew in today from Adam's house in Colorado (after watching their three yahoos for a week) and will be staying here until we are DONE!!!! I think Ellyn has finally fallen asleep. She took a Sunday nap. I didn't. I have to go cover her up with all of her blankets now and finally go to sleep. I AM SO TIRED. What's new right?

I received an e-mail on my phone a few hours ago and I noticed the date, I hadn't thought about it at all until then, but the last two hours as I have unpacked boxes and Sawyer has been the most amazing self entertained baby I have thought about it and thought about it. That's what you get to do when you are unwrapping a box of your daughter's treasures that somehow ended up in the living room and the box is too heavy to carry upstairs. Warning- this is strictly family history, journal type material, it could be long and boring to others and you may want to stop reading now. This date is filled with very sad memories, so much loss, so much tragedy. It also has a teensy bit of goodness wrapped up in it too. This is the day that, seven years ago and with hindsight- I had the first indication that four and a half years of infertility was over. It is the day that fear for my husband became my frequent companion. September 11th 2001, was the catalyst for the past seven year...

I LOVED TODAY and I will tell you why... 1. Ellie was happy ALL DAY LONG. She gave me kisses and hugs and she let me put her hair in piggy buns and she left them in. She let me cut her toenails. She walked with me to pick up Sadie from her class. She was good to her brother, she laughed, and smiled, and made happy sounds... all day long. 2. I found another bird in the house and I got it out. Say it with me... CABIN! 3. We bought more Pirate's Booty. Have you ever had Pirate Booty? You should, especially because it is so fun to say. Sadie: Mom, can I have Pirate Booty in my lunch? Me: Yes, Sadie, you can have Pirate Booty in your lunch. Did you want Pirate Booty for your snack as well? Sadie: Yes mom, I want Pirate Booty for my snack too. How much less interesting would that conversation be if say, it was about raisins? Pirate's Booty is sold at your local Costco. 4. I got a brownie mix at Costco. Now I can make the yummy brownies that we had the other night at ...